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conundrum of the paradoxical palindrome:
not because i like big words, but because it's accurate: unsolvable question spawned by existence of The fact, refuting its own existence, apparently identical from either side - neither perspective apparent that it is but one of two, with simultaneous awareness transcending awareness. The Frontier, nonexistent, between Existence and Not.

"reality" is one of those tangents, my friend; it just happens to be the one that we all agree upon - that agreement (acceptance) sufficing, for most, for understanding otherwise unattainable. i know i'm chasing my tail - but it's my natural inclination to do so; having no preference, i let nature take its course. there's purpose in even the ... See Morepurposeless; my finite (humanly) perspective knows not why, but Faith (yes) leads me as i'm lead, to choose as i "choose," and i am at peace with what "i" am within All That Is. I accept edward's inability to accept, and become a transcendent peace that encompasses that disharmony and its inverse; this does not, however, negate the existence of apparent disharmony - the same, i assume, that is witnessed and was responded to thrice, recently. to each of you: i am more at peace, more often, than ever before i've been; i am truly "in God's hands," and, holistically, as whole as i'll be until this body relinquishes its hold on my soul.

i love you, too. i HAVE found happiness in thinking, now; i'm no longer mired in the old and familiar torment: now i see not only all of the darkness of the void surrounding the flickering light of my awareness as i traverse what thoughts lie between me and death. i've been enlightened with appreciation of the eternal nature of the light and of the... See More void and of their coexistence - The Truth, the nature of Nature, a fact irrefutable and fundamental, its existence made apparent (apparency as substantial, though, only as the fronteir between dark and light, as substantial as choice) by the fact that there is light within the dark, that the two co-exist as a part of the Whole, and that, somehow, i perceive them each and both and All. i had to suffer in order to come here; i know not whether it was pride or skepticism or cynicism or some other predisposition that lead me to re-re-re-invent the wheel - all of that matters no longer; i've arrived Here Whole, with this holistic understanding which is peace, the nature of which tells me that its purpose is but to Be.

through all those words, what i really want to convey is that i have found peace of acceptance, and acceptance of that peace. i mean it - peace used to bug me.