Self-sustained unacceptability.

I know myself to be the bastard creation of, among other things, what I knew and what I was told, and remain unable to accept the unity of those halves - a condition self-sustaining, as would be its inverse. What choice can I make to become something else? I strive now to maintain my connection to this place where I am at peace, my state of balance, my absolute state. I am both, now; stating this makes it so. I shall see if it lasts.